News:
1.My sister is engaged
2.Israel is mobilized to help me:
a.Volunteer from Haifa Municipality helped me get some 2nd hand furniture - a kids plastic blue table for drawing and a rolling table-like thing.
b.A social worker from the Haifa Municipality introduced me to 2 people: one is involved with Boston/Haifa connection and may do something with/for artists in Haifa/Boston. Hopefully I can be involved somehow.
c.Same woman in (b.) introduced me to a guy that has a gallery on Yerushalaim St. in Haifa. Maybe he'll give me a show, but looking at the stuff he has hanging, it's very Not my style, so he may not want to show my work.
d.Same woman in (b.and c.) introduced me to someone else who gave me an artists' contact in Haifa and will give me other contacts in exchange for speaking English with him.
e.I met with the artist from (d.) and he introduced me to the manager of a community center in Hadar, a Haifa neighborhood, and he may give me a show in the spring. Also, he was very interesting to talk to. And the artist was really nice, I also went to his studio in Nave Sha'anan and saw his works - they were great and actually in a similar style to me.

3. On a sidetrack. I almost called C. whom we broke up with 2 weeks ago since I passed his home on the way to the artist studio, but decided it's best not to. That was hard, I am still recovering from the lovely memories :)

2g.Going back a little in time. My friends, an Israeli couple that I met in Boston invited me to their uncle's house in Haifa for Shabas. It turns out the uncle going to draw models every week at Namala Haifa studio downtown near the Port. This turned out to be 'my' best find so far! I go there every week and it's my connection to artists, chilled out mood, great music, and good company :)
h.Another young woman from Haifa Municipality is helping me with getting information from Haifa University where I am considering doing a Masters of Art Therapy. (?) And she also has an idea that I should do illustrations and she's gathering a list of publishing houses in Israel. Cool!
i.Something I am forgetting. I'll have to add it later.
j.People have been super nice and helpful. For one Shabas I had 3 invitations!
4.Feeling a bit lonely. Trying to figure it out. Pms, depression, not having family around, not having a stable place / base, not knowing what I will do or want to do, loosing a relationship, loosing someone who cared about me and felt familiar to me ...especially from my Russian upbringing: 'wear shoes - don't let feet get cold' 'eat breakfast' i loved it!! made it feel like 'home'
5.I need to invent another idea of home and create a stable home within this instability
Things that I brought with me that give me a sense of home:
a. a few artworks of my friends and one of my works
b.my bicycle
c.pictures of family
d.my shabat candlesticks
e.a few favorite books
f.drawing supplies and paper
g.my computer
Other things I have that give me comfort
a.cell phone next to me in case someone dear calls
b.a clean and orderly room
c.ulpan every morning
d.the sea near by
e.friends
f.distant family here in Israel
g.a cup of tea
Things to acquire
a.comfort with myself
b.feeling like i am enough and adequate
c.feeling confident about the uncertainty of life!
d.i'll take suggestions here